World Diabetes Day raises global awareness of diabetes. My goal in particular is to raise awareness of Type ONE diabetes for 2 reasons. #1. We need a cure. The more people that understand this disease, the more likely we are to be able to raise funds to find a CURE! And #2. So that people will stop confusing Type 1 and Type 2. It is difficult when someone thinks that she has this disease b/c of eating poorly and tells me that she'll out grow it. Or any of the misconceptions that come from our culture knowing more about Type 2. I don't mind educating people about Type 1 at all....I just wish I didn't have to.
So for today I'm going to pretend that a Cure has been found. And imagine how differently our life would be:
We would be able to sleep at night free from worries about blood sugar.
We wouldn't have to set our alarm to go off at 2AM.
We wouldn't hold our breath when we went to wake her up in the morning (on those rare mornings she wakes up in her own bed ;) praying that she's still alive.
We would never have to wake her up from a deep sleep and make her eat smarties or drink juice.
We would be able to eat a meal w/o having to check blood sugar first. If you ask, Suzannah will tell you this is the worst part of having diabetes.
We would forget the carb. value of every food imaginable!
We would never have to have her sit out a quarter of her basket ball game to bring her up from a low or interrupt her play to check.
Her fingers wouldn't look dirty anymore b/c there wouldn't be hundreds of holes in them.
She wouldn't have to have scars and bruises from shots or cannula's.
She wouldn't have to be brave every three days to get a needle inserted into her w/ that loud click for her pod.
She wouldn't be connected to any kind of device on a daily basis.
I would no longer see my child's blood every day.
She could have more independence.
She could have juice when she wanted...not just when she had to.
She could go away for college w/o her parents having to pack up and move on campus. ;)
She could live a life free of the fears of the consequences of not constantly being in tune w/ her body.
She could be a care free kid and not have to remember to take her kit w/ her everywhere she went.
She could eat what she wanted w/o asking permission! (I'm thinking teenage years)
She could drive a car w/o checking her blood sugar first.
She would experience a freedom she has never known and that we all take for granted.
It would be amazing and wonderful. And I would give my left arm for her to not have this disease anymore. Really, I WOULD! In a heartbeat w/o even thinking about it. But through suffering comes compassion. Those who have suffered much have much compassion and there are many blessings that have come from this disease. I wonder all the time how different our kids would be, how different our life would be if Suzannah had never been diagnosed w/ Diabetes. I hate how she acts w/ her sugar is off. She is sad and tired and fuzzy headed when she's low. She is irritable, frustrated and aggressive when she's high. It is SO hard to know how to parent a diabetic child b/c of the variables....but parenting is hard in general. And truly w/ all she has to deal w/, she is a very impressive young lady. She continues to grow in maturity and has fewer and fewer "pity parties" b/c of diabetes. I love her like I never knew I could love. She is who she is b/c of diabetes and I think it will end up making her a much better person than if she'd never had it. I have to.
"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future" Jeremiah 29:11
I believe that the Lord has wonderful things in store for Suzannah and that He is going to use diabetes to draw her closer to Him. And hopefully she will use diabetes to bless others.
That being said, we will still do whatever we can to help find a cure!! If you ever feel like you would like to donate to Find a Cure for diabetes, you can go to JDRF.org and donate any time.