I have been just in awe of God's mercy lately. It started after Charley Kate was born. I was getting ready one morning and was just so overwhelmed by it that I started to cry. I wasn't worthy....of anything and yet he continues to have mercy on me and to bless me. I immediately began praying prayers of praise and thankfulness. Then my thoughts went to how I can be more worthy. I want to feel worthy of all these blessings. I want his mercy to be justified. Then I was struck by how incredibly prideful those thoughts were. There is nothing, nothing I could ever do to be worthy of his mercy. "All of us have become like one who is unclean, and all our righteous acts are like filthy rags: we all shrivel up like a leaf, and like the wind our sins sweep us away." The fact that I entertained the thought of doing something or even attempting to be someone worthy of his mercy is so evident of my humanness. "For God has bound all men over to disobedience so that he may have mercy on them all." He knows we are unworthy. That is what makes his mercy and grace so indescribably beautiful! His mercy in Charley's birth, His mercy in Charely's temperament, His mercy in any blessing He bestows upon us is 100% undeserved! A gift. An unbelievable undeserved gift. It baffles my mind. Grace is something that is so huge that I struggle to get my human mind around it. He is so beautiful and I am so grateful for His mercy and grace. I don't want to take His gifts for granted.