There is a lesson to be learned in everything and whenever something unpleasant comes up I try to figure out the lesson to be learned as quickly as possible to hopefully shorten the unpleasantness! Ha! So what can I learn through this and how can I give God the glory? I think the main thing is that I really do struggle w/ control issues. This is not a revelation to me, however, I've not really worked on relinquishing control for real. Ironically enough I've been thinking about Eve a lot here lately. Why was she cursed w/ increased pains in childbirth? God wasn't jokin' w/ this one! She wanted to be like God....could this have been a desire to have control? Who am I to blame Eve for these imminent pains when I have the same issues?! Oh how I desire to fully rely on him. I am going to actively work at surrendering my desire to control and rest in the shadow of His wing.
So, here I go again, consciously acknowledging that my Saviour is in control and not me!!! I will continue to wait knowing that His perfect plan is in action and He will guide me and take care of me all along the way. I need only to be in His presence as He is always in mine.
Wait for the LORD:
be strong and take heart
and wait for the LORD.
I have an appointment tomorrow. We will schedule a sonogram for next Monday. It sounds so far away and I just can't imagine still being pregnant next Monday!!! I don't expect to learn anything tomorrow, but if I do I'll update you. Until then, I'm waiting on the Lord and trusting in His plan and timing. "He has made everything beautiful in its time." And it will be beautiful!